30 Days to 30: Day 9

Today was a day like any other Monday — blah. But I did have a nice dinner with Rachael and Julia, we made a delicious healthy caesar (hint: just use yogurt instead of egg and mayo).

Mood: dull, a bit stressed, stable 

Progress: I will say, although so so lovely and I wouldn't change it for the world, living a block away from my friends certainly makes me a lot less productive. I was planning on working on my other job and doing pilates after work, but instead I just made dinner and drank wine at their house. How do I all of a sudden have so much work and so little time? I was supposed to spend this month bettering myself, right?

Mentally: My family is going on a vacation together at the end of June at Stinson Beach in California. My older brother planned the whole deal and picked out the place. And although I am totally excited, it is so out of my price range (I am still trying to find a permanent job!), but I am definitely at the age (30!) where I should be paying for such things myself. The whole deal puts me off a bit mentally.

Physically: Feeling the need to work out, but seriously cannot find the time. Still lacking a bit of confidence.

Emotionally: The monday dullness may have just dulled any real emotions I have.  

Thoughts About Turning 30: Definitely thought a lot about the fact that I am turning 30 and can't afford to go on my own family vacation. Probably, when you think about it from an outside perspective, a 30-year-old should be stable enough to do such things without borrowing money from her parents. But are most almost 30-year-olds trying to get situated in one of the most expensive cities in the world after a move from Europe? I think not. Sorry Dad.